[un]fashionable

I have always been into fashion..I just have never been "in" fashion. For instance..David & I went to the mall today. To the mall. That has a billion stores. And I only found 1 pair of jeans. There has not been too many times that I have found more than a couple of things at any given shopping trip.

I have a TON of clothes, but the problem is I wear only a few of them. (Too tight, too old, too something!) A lot of the clothes I have were bought in the early college years (and maybe a few from highschool too!) and it's just time for new clothes!

So glad that fall/winter is close. I feel much better "in my skin" with a few layers on. I don't own a pair of shorts, and I have always been one to put a tank top under shirts..so you can see where the summer months make me just a little hot.

..If I ever win the lottery (which is pretty high in VA right now!) I will have a personal stylist.

Things I love..

Things I LOVED this week..

Eating.

Had fresh homemade salsa for lunch

&

Pulled pork BBQ is in the crockpot for dinner as we speak

David.

Celebrating my Birthday with him (this past Sunday)

He took the day off Monday so we could hang out and when I woke up he suprised me with a trip to the waterpark.

Snugglin' up to the him & watching a movie

(There is no hidden message in this post. The big & bold do not go together. For instance do not put "Loved" "Eating" "David" together & call the cops because you think that I have eaten my husband. I have not.)

I . am . done .

My days of being an ungrad are officially over. I have completed my bachelor's degree!

..and now I am going into job search mode. My "plan" is to put the money I make from my "job" into savings so that when we have children if I want to take a litle extra time off (or perhaps then switch to full-time photography!) I will have a nice cushion behind me. Photography money will be used to expand the business and for spending. Because of David's job (he just got a nice raise! and will get another nice raise this time next year!) I do not have to work, but hey, I like the money! Plus, I am excited about savinggg.

Addicting

The smell of David's cologne stops me in my tracks
I even sprayed it on his pillow last night
because he's on a business trip this week.
I miss him more this trip that I ever have before
I am confused as to why I am missing him so much.
I can't wait for him to fly in tomorrow night
I haven't shaved my legs in 3 days
(can't believe I just admitted that!)
But tonight, those babies will be like silk
in anticipation for his arrival

:-)

It's a sad song..

I was driving down the road, listening to this song, and had to pull over because there were too many tears in my eyes to see the road:

Sissy's Song Lyrics
By: Alan Jackson

"Loved ones she left behind
Just trying to survive
And understand the why
Feeling so lost inside
Anger shot straight at God
Then asking for His love
Empty with disbelief
Just hoping that maybe

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me.."

Although I am incredibly thankful for my step dad, even after all of these years of my father being gone, it hasn't gotten any easier. Losing a parent, child, or spouse is to me among the hardest losses. Someone that you see and talk to every single day that is suddenly taken away is hard to stomach. There have been many times that I had "anger shot straight at God" because my father wasn't here with me.

I remember the first time I took David to my father's gravesite, it was the day we got married. David said out loud, "Don't worry I will take care of her." And of course hearing him say that brought tears to my eyes. He has not wavered from that promise. David takes good care of me.

Today, I am thanking God for a wonderful husband, memories of an amazing father, a mother that held it all together & a stepdad that has done a really good job.

..and this is where life begins

I have two interviews coming up! One is this Sunday for the vendor in Maryland that wants to talk to me about being their full time photographer for weddings (woohoo!). And the next one is on Monday with a local middle school here for the position of head cheerleading coach! Which, could be a good "in" for a teaching position.

I went home for a senior session on Tuesday and called Sarah (little sister) right before I got to the session and said, "Put on a cute dress and some boots and when I'm done here we'll spend a few minutes taking pictures behind the house." Literally we had 10 minutes of sunlight left. I am so proud of the young woman she's become!


.....have a great weekend!