It's a sad song..

I was driving down the road, listening to this song, and had to pull over because there were too many tears in my eyes to see the road:

Sissy's Song Lyrics
By: Alan Jackson

"Loved ones she left behind
Just trying to survive
And understand the why
Feeling so lost inside
Anger shot straight at God
Then asking for His love
Empty with disbelief
Just hoping that maybe

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me.."

Although I am incredibly thankful for my step dad, even after all of these years of my father being gone, it hasn't gotten any easier. Losing a parent, child, or spouse is to me among the hardest losses. Someone that you see and talk to every single day that is suddenly taken away is hard to stomach. There have been many times that I had "anger shot straight at God" because my father wasn't here with me.

I remember the first time I took David to my father's gravesite, it was the day we got married. David said out loud, "Don't worry I will take care of her." And of course hearing him say that brought tears to my eyes. He has not wavered from that promise. David takes good care of me.

Today, I am thanking God for a wonderful husband, memories of an amazing father, a mother that held it all together & a stepdad that has done a really good job.