Tuesday, August 11, 2009

It's a sad song..

I was driving down the road, listening to this song, and had to pull over because there were too many tears in my eyes to see the road:

Sissy's Song Lyrics
By: Alan Jackson
"Loved ones she left behind
Just trying to survive
And understand the why
Feeling so lost inside
Anger shot straight at God
Then asking for His love
Empty with disbelief
Just hoping that maybe

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me.."

Although I am incredibly thankful for my step dad, even after all of these years of my father being gone, it hasn't gotten any easier. Losing a parent, child, or spouse is to me among the hardest losses. Someone that you see and talk to every single day that is suddenly taken away is hard to stomach. There have been many times that I had "anger shot straight at God" because my father wasn't here with me.

I remember the first time I took David to my father's gravesite, it was the day we got married. David said out loud, "Don't worry I will take care of her." And of course hearing him say that brought tears to my eyes. He has not wavered from that promise. David takes good care of me.

Today, I am thanking God for a wonderful husband, memories of an amazing father, a mother that held it all together & a stepdad that has done a really good job.


Michelle said...

That IS such a sad song...sad, but powerful.

Big hugs to you!

C said...

Ugh. I hate when songs just make me bawl like that.

So sorry about your dad, sweetheart! I'm so glad you are blessed to have the other wonderful men in your life, though. :)

Lindsey said...

Such a sad song. I hate when songs make me cry! Hugs to you sweet friend!!

Yankee Girl said...

I cried the first time I heard this song. Now whenever it comes on the radio, I change the channel. Crying and driving do not go together!

Windy City Kelley's said...

What a nice post. I almost started crying when I read it.

ae said...

It is a really sad song but it does articulate how it feels to lose someone close to you.

Lucky in Love said...

Too sweet. So glad you have a great husband who is there for you!

"J" said...

Just reading what David said to your dad brought tears to my eyes!!!! It just makes me think - that I'm so lucky to still have my dad here with me!!! I'm such a daddy's girl and I don't even want to think about him not being here with me!!!! You are a very STRONG woman Megan!!!!

You have a very STRONG wonderful MAN in your life now!!!! Heck, you never know - maybe your dad hand-picked him and sent him to you!!!! =) (I bet he did) I know he is looking down on you PROUD as can be!!!!!

I've missed you and I've missed reading your blog!! I hope to be back FULL TIME in just a few weeks!!!!