Friday, April 17, 2009

Weekday Woes

Decisions, decisions, decisions.. who likes those? As many of my blogging buddies have gone through this, and my heart hurt equally for each of you-- I am very close to joining the unemployment circle. I was talking to my boss this morning, like I always do, to go over the projects I was working on and to see what projects he needed done today, when our conversation became ugly. Not ugly in the fact that tempers arose, but ugly in the sense of reality. We're a small company fighting for American jobs, but really- how many are there left? There are not enough family-owned manufacturing companies to support our cause (this can be seen my looking at the 'Made in Japan, China, Korea, etc.' sticker on countless items in your house.) He said the President (of our company, not Mr. Change Obama) wanted to speak with me soon (although I would LOVE the chance to talk to our POTUS). Me wanting to brace myself, asked Alan if it were likely I would be given a termination date. As you can imagine, "more than likely, yes" was the answer.

I have known for a while that our company was likely not to survive to see the end of 2009..but right before the ceremony? Right after I just upgraded my camera? Right after we just bought a car? All the while still not being paid a penny back from the $15,000 my Dad owes me. (Yes, you read right- $15,000- meaning I have no buffer, no savings, nothing.)

We have a lot of decisions to make. I haven't finalized things with the caterer, florist, or cake lady, so David & I are going to have to talk about whether we want to go on with the wedding. As much as I want it, I don't think it is wise. Because of things with my Dad, I don't have a savings. David works for the government, his job is very secure, but there's no way I would want to pinch pennies enough to have his salary cover the both of us. I have to put some serious thought into what the future holds for me. Obviously my photography right now is not going to carry me through to what I am used to making--maybe in a year or two, but not right now.

19 comments:

Jon and Steph said...

Oh hon! I am so sorry. I really don't know what to say except for that I'll be praying for you and thinking about you. I really hope and pray you do not have to push back your wedding! I feel terrible for you. I really hope that everything works out!

The New Black said...

Sorry to hear that...big bummer!

KLC said...

I will pray for you!!!

Jennifer said...

Oh girl, I'm so sorry to hear that. Things are so hard right now and I wonder if there will ever be an end to it all.

I hope you can make some kind of wedding work even if it's not everything you had hoped it would be.

Thinking of you guys and praying for an uncertain future.

The Pink Potpourri said...

sorry you guys are going through this time! i think lots of people are in the same boat :(

don't forget to swing by and enter the GIVEAWAY this weekend! It is super cute and we'll have TWO winners!

Naturally Caffeinated Family said...

oh i'm so sorry. i really hope everything works out better than expected and you can still go with all your great plans for the year! i will definitely be praying for you.

Lindsey said...

Oh friend, I'm so sorry to hear this. I really hope and pray you don't have to push the wedding back. HUGS and prayers!!

C said...

That's so tough! I really believe you can still pull off a beautiful wedding on a small budget- you just have to get creative. And your photography is fantastic- maybe pursue that more aggressively? Praying for you!

Brett Alexandra said...

Oh my gosh Meg, I am so sorry to hear this. I feel for you. It's been so hard trying to find a job here. Everything will work out. Maybe you guys can cut back on some of the wedding purchases? Or even push it back some? I will be praying for you guys! Hang in there!!

Kristina P. said...

Megan, I am so sorry to hear about your job! I hope that you guys work things out and are able to someday have the wedding you deserve.

Sarah said...

Meg, I'm so sorry! This is such a hard time right now, but to have the wedding weight on top I'm sure is even harder!! I'll be praying for you!!! Big hugs!!

Lucky in Love said...

Honey...this is awful news! I will be praying for you. I truly hope that you don't have to push back your wedding...maybe change some things...being together forever is the most important thing that happens on that day...but I know there are things that are just so costly no matter what you do. I hope everything works out for you!

writing4612 said...

I know you don't want to rely on David's paycheck to cover things, but what if that's your only option?

My mom is a single mom who takes care of the household and me. I have a twin brother, but he has a job. I'm disabled. She doesn't get child support anymore because of our ages, but God has always provided for us.

I'm just saying saying that so that you know it can be done. God will always make a way!

Sherrie said...

I am sorry to hear about the job situation. Please do not cancel or push back the wedding. You can scale things back, but the most important thing is for the two of you to have all your loved ones present to bless your marriage. Hugs and email me if you need to chat!

Wearing Mascara said...

Hey girl,

I read this in my reader but completely didn't get to comment until now. I am so sorry for what is going on and I will be thinking about you. Just remember that everything will turn out how it should. When a door closes, another one will open - hard to think about in a time like this, but it will!

Also, just wanna let you know that my blog has switched to WordPress and for many people it's not showing up in their readers. Visit: wearingmascara.com to make sure it's showing up properly! (You may have to delete and then add it again). xoxo,

Julie

Jules said...

I am so sorry to hear that and I'm sending hugs your way. I will keep you in prayers and hope that you can hang in there as long as possible. I hope that everything with the wedding works out hopefully your photography business will start taking off too.

You're so talented and good things will come your way.

Lis said...

Oh my goodness Megan I am so so sorry!! Ugh, I can't believe how many of us this is happening to!!

I will keep you in my prayers!! xoxo

Windy City Kelley's said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your job! This economy is so tough. I hope you can find something soon to replace the job you have now.

THE Stephanie said...

Ugh! I'm so sorry! I hate to hear this... I'm so sick of this economy... it's heartbreaking.