Monday, July 28, 2008

Post Secret

This secret was one of the postcards sent in that's updated every Sunday on PostSecret. This was the response under it, which I couldn't have written better myself:

"The tattoo doesn't smile at me, it can't talk to me and I can't make it proud. My tattoo couldn't fill an empty seat when I graduated from college, and it can't walk me down the aisle when I get married."

I got teary eyed reading the response. 14 years ago this November I watched a heart attack take my fathers life. In losing a loved one, especially a parent or close family member, it doesn't ever get easier. The pain never goes away. You learn to start each day with your head up high and deal with the pain. Every day you get stronger in dealing with the pain.

I do have a rememberence tattoo, but I'd prefer to have my Father. After my father died I would look up to the stars, for many many years--every night. And when there were stars in the sky (which in the country is almost every night) I would pick the prettiest one. The star I picked was my father's star, in a way, it's the way I imagined Heaven. I have a 3-star tattoo, one star for myself, and one for my brother & for my sister. One of the reasons I am excited to move out of DC is that I don't see the stars anymore.
I hope you're proud of the woman i've become..


The Pink Potpourri said...

wow. what an emotional post. i almost fell out of my chair when i read that post card. clearly that person has never experienced the death of a loved one.

when we lived in oklahoma out in the middle of nowhere, we would go out and look at the stars a lot. that's where i saw my first shooting star! now that we're in the city, we can't do that like we used to :(

Meg said...

I saw that card yesterday and couldn't believe how dumb it was.

Employee No. 3699 said...

That moron can get a 'rememberance tattoo' right now...for the loss of their intelligence. Idiot!

I'm glad you'll be able to see stars again soon. Did you find an apartment/job yet? Just curious.

Take care.

Megan said...

I am so sorry, losing a close loved one is something I haven't experienced, so I can only imagine the pain. I assume it to be deep and sometimes even physically painful. I am glad that you are going to be able to see the stars again.

I update two of my blogs the most, (this is one I have with a friend) and my family update blog is

Karol said...

I'm so sorry for your lose, and for you having to read that idiots post. How insensitive.

I love your tattoo. (the idea) Cuz, I'm getting the same thing, with the same thought in mind. That's nuts. Great minds think alike!

(thanks for stopping by!)

THEhooahwife said...

Aw Meg! You made me all teary eyed! I had always wondered why you loved stars so much... Love you and miss you girl!

Liz said...

This was so personal and touching Meg. That card shocks me.

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Lizzz said...

I love you :) :)

I like learning more about you through your blog!

Princess Abigail said...

That postcard is very silly and one of those typical internet/facebook/virtual numbskullness accessories that people create thoughtlessly. You, however, seem thoughtful, poised, and lovely within. Your Dad did a fantastic job with you and has left a beautiful little girl as a heritage for us all.